Ranting 101 - Time to "Move On"!

Watching FOX news this morning. Blah, blah, blah.......................John Travolta just can't seem to move on after the death of his son. This was said by some scantily dressed anchorwoman that life has obviously not smacked up alongside the head yet. I can't remember when his son died but it hasn't been THAT long ago. There is no roadmap for grief.....ok now you can be angry-----oops! you've spent too long in phase 2 you NEED to go to phase 3. We all deal in a different way on a different time table and sometimes that is a REALLY slow table. In the "olden days" they did 40 days (I'm sure if this is wrong I'll get a correction. Thanks.) of screaming, weaping, lamenting, raging, tear clothes (ok you get the idea). It was the "grieving period". Now we get criticized if we don't show emotion at the funeral, criticized if we show emotion, we shun folks because WE don't know what to say (so say nothing except I Love You in the midst of a hug, handshake, etc.), some folks only stay in touch so they can gossip about the fact that "they aren't moving on. Poor things, but don't say anything". Ok I just googled and found out the death was in January. Somewhere around 180 days. For some this is a long time; for others NOT a long time. I have a friend back in Gillette I sang with for 10+ years in a quartet. She got smacked up alongside the head with life and about a year later the rest of us became a trio because she couldn't "move on". It actually took her about 5+ years to "move on"; to find a "new" normal; to create a different, but good, life. I know other folks that moved on in a few months. Me? Well, on June 27th it will be 7 years since our 13 year old son, K.C. went to be with the Lord and I have FINALLY found a new normal. This winter in NM we went for Ken's physical health and about March I realized I had found my new normal. This winter I spent hours and hours alone early in the morning before Ken got up. I spent time just quietly thinking, remembering, etc. It wasn't until Ken mentioned to some of our friends that I am happy (as opposed to content); eager for life (as opposed to whatever, ho hum) and ready for a new day (as opposed to days lasting 36 years).

Well, now I feel better!

Rain.............. then the sun shining through

Went to Greybull yesterday then back to Cody for more scripts.  The rain was standing everywhere at the fairgrounds.  Met with a gal I haven't seen in several years.  Good catching up with her.  In Greybull they have  a Museum of Flight and Aerial Firefighting. http://www.tctwest.net/~flight/ Then back to      Cody to get checks signed.  It is amazing to see how neat and clean even the abandoned houses are around here.  And on the way to Cody I found 

Emblem.  Here it is.  All of it! 

Leaving WW I was trying to figure out how to get to Canyon Street and pushed a little too hard on the footfeed...............yup  next thing I know I'm searching for registration, insurance and drivers license...........hmmm have I mentioned I've recently had all of these in the bus making copies preparing to become SD citizens?   Hmmmmm, muttering and puttering giving the nice policeman pictures, the wrong insurance card and am about ready to pitch an old registration when he thoughtfully said, "That one will do, ma'am! I'll be right back!"  God Bless this man!  I sat there trying to remember when I was stopped last and came up with two years ago in somewhat similar circumstances.  "Yes, ma'am!  You've been good for SEVEN years.  I'm going to just give you a verbal warning!  You be good for another 7.  And Canyon is at the first light you will come to."  Man!  Huh! Seven years, huh?  I must have a bad memory.  :) :) :)   Anywhoo on the way back the sun began coming out, clearing the clouds away.

New gadgets and more rain - Am I a duck??? quack quack

It is STILL raining.  I feel like a duck!  Slosh, slosh, slosh.  Spent the day in Cody working.  Then went to Wally World for scrips.  Then walked by the camera bar (right, just mosying riiggghhht!) and poof! a new camera jumped into my little hands.  Bigger, 20X optical zoom, lots of bells and whistles which I probably won't be able to figure out until AFTER we leave YNP!  My crystal ball says I should set up the video camera to tape us as we head into the park complete with sound.  I'm sure we could make money off it on YouTube.  Me driving, him trying to take pictures, me not being able to think fast enough to tell him which button to turn/flip/push, his muttering getting louder and louder as he tells me to slow down til he gets it, me not being able to stop our 55' length just ANYWHERE (me muttering louder now)................................................ Think I'll just go to bed and try to figure out a way NOT to go through the park.  Don't laugh.  It takes two of us to equal 1/2 of a brain.